I’m coming out of the worst burnout I’ve ever experienced in my life. I didn’t know whether I would ever be okay. Actually, I still don’t know. All I know is that my self-esteem took a dark and deep dive, … Continue reading
Right around this time of year, I look around and can’t help but feel a little disappointed. This feeling creeps up sooner every year, sometimes just within the first week of December. It’s a feeling of disappointment in not seeing magic.
It was so much easier as a child to marvel and wonder at all of the amazing things that Christmas had to offer: the TV specials, the movies, the sweet treats, the decorations, the gifts, the music, the sheer enthusiasm and genuine joy that you could actually feel in the air.
But I don’t feel that anymore.
Instead, I’ve felt stress, annoyance, frustration, and a desire to just get it over with: the gift shopping, the party planing, the entire thing. I kinda hate it.
I so wish I could call back the magic of the season, and I’m going to try this month to do so. But it’s just not the same anymore.
So what can I do differently in order to feel the magic? What can I do as an adult to feel like a child again? I can’t get rid of my responsibilities and obligations. So what would I need to add or take away or change in order to bring back that awe and wonder?
I hope I can find this feeling again.